I was avoiding writing this but then after 30 seconds I saw this quote saying “write down your thoughts”. So I thought why not?
I am the type of person that believes if something is bound to happen then it will no matter what and universe will make sure it does by giving you hints. Does it ever happen to you that you don’t feel like going somewhere but you still go to find out that, the place has closed down or something and you should have listened to your guts? Yup it happens with me too A LOT. I don’t know why this happens though.
It is 4 am and I woke up today from my sadly horror dream that did not have ghosts/jinns but it did include a devil that is inside of us that makes us do bad. So basically I had a dream I was slapping my sister because she was annoying to the next up level and she had some sort of fits and I instantly regret that and started crying. The dream isn’t that deep or scary but I guess I love my siblings too much that a little harm also affects me.
I hate the night sometimes although it’s not night night at the moment but the process of trying to sleep is just super annoying. I like the night when I am just awake watching Netflix or something but it is just the trying to sleep part that takes forever. And the following morning it is so difficult to wake up. You know what, I will continue writing this in the morning, maybe then I will sound positive. I probably sound so negative and dead at the moment.
4:22am signing off
Good morning! It is 9:10 and I feel really annoyed for some reason although it is a really nice sunny day in London. It is barely ever sunny here so it is a BIG deal. Just want to let you know that I have been unmotivated to do anything for few weeks now, going through career crisis and my career means a lot to me. Anyways, I don’t usually write this much of nonsense but since I am so unmotivated to do anything, I thought why not write down my thoughts, that is the least I can do.